Had myself a pretty nice little Thursday, woke up with sharp pain right under my breast bone, finally let Tim take me to the emergency room after having pain for almost a week.  It started after shopping Black Friday.  I didn't have a huge greasy meal, I had a smoothie for breakfast, TinStar for lunch with a small side salad and by four o' clock I was in pain.  So, I ate a hamburger and that took me over the edge.  I woke up Saturday morning with a fever and the feeling that my chest was going to explode.  So I did nothing.

I had already had test run the week before because my stomach has been a LONG running problem for me.  On Tuesday before Thanksgiving, he told me that all my test had come back clear and that I needed to have a test run for gallstones.  So with that bug in my ear, I already knew what my issue was.  I muscled through until Monday so I could call my doctor to schedule that other test for gallstones.  Tuesday I had a hydascan that showed that my gallbladder didn't work correctly.  So I had an appointment with a doctor on Friday to set up a day to have it taken out, more than likely.  But Thursday morning I woke up with greatest pain and I couldn't wait another day.

We woke up and drove to the hospital where my mother in law works; which was great, because we got right in, the nurses were great and my gallbladder is GONE!

The pain is still about the same from before, but at least this pain will go away!  That is the important part.

This was right before I went into surgery, bye, bye, gallbladder.

I showed that gallbladder whose boss.

So that is what happen this last week, but I've been gone from the blog for a while.  I feel like my life in the past months has been all about purging and fixing. I mean, I have sold my house, been rich for a hot second, paid a bunch of stuff off, moved in with my g-unit and started my Pilates certification.

The last two months have been one of the biggest emotional journeys for me.  In the last two months, Tim and I have experienced the lowest time in our marriage and the highest.  I have been at the bottom of my health with my back and the best I've ever felt with my back.  I spent  three weeks not being able to open my jaw all the way because it was locked.  I lived in my perfect little dream home, now I have one bedroom with my husband and dog at my grandma's house. And to add ALL MY STOMACH ISSUES!

I don't think I've ever talked much about my faith on here.  It's not because I don't love Jesus or actually try to commit myself to him daily, I just felt that this wasn't the reason I started my blog, although I felt it was God that led me to do so.  So pretty much, I'm a Christian, a pretty unperfect one too.  Just ask anyone.  Thank God, he forgives. Seriously.  Because however much I love him, I'm still not perfect, but that was the whole reason he died.

This is almost getting too heavy for me and I'm the one writing it….

Rewind three weeks…

So, my jaw.  About six weeks ago, a chiropractor royally jacked me up and for the first time in my TMJ history, it locked for more than a day.  It locked for twenty one.  Jerk.  Since then, I have been in the process of a really weird alternative treatment and one day, after three weeks, IT OPENED.  Like big.  I was on the phone with Tim and viola, click.  Oh my gosh.  IT OPENED.  After three weeks of poking and shoving food through my barely open mouth, I can open my mouth all the way. It is amazing.  All of sudden the most miraculous thing that has ever happen to me is that my jaw now works!  What?  Almost everyones jaw works.  But when it doesn't, it sucks real hard.  So think about that and be thankful you can open your dang mouth!  This was the day my mouth opened and I was super pumped about it!

But one thing is for sure, admist all this pain, sickness and marriage problems, God has never been more present, more real or more loving.  He has blown my socks off with his outpouring and it still amazes me.  I don't say it enough, but God is so good.  Tim sent me a devotional last Saturday and it really hit home, it said:

You might be in a situation right now where everything is going wrong and you can't figure it out.  But God knows.  Nothing in your life is accidental.  The pleasures and pains, the opportunities and obstacles, God can use it all.  There is nothing God cannot use for good in your life if you'll hand it over to him – and them trust him. 

I think the next year is going to blow my mind and God is just preparing Tim and I.  He's getting rid of the junk and my gallbladder was one of them.  Be prepared to follow Tim and I onto the best journey of our lives, it's gonna be awesome.  Mostly because God is the one taking us on it.